Lola

Lola is such a homerecking slut. I would gladly go to jail for destroying her. Ripping her apart inch by inch.
If my husband paid half, hell s fourth, of the attention he paid to Lola to me, we would be better off.

Lola is the name I have given my husbands computer. After some girl in college i just never liked.

He spends more time with Lola then anyone else in life. Every morning, she gets a good morning, every night they hang out. While I sit in the bath room and cry. 

He says I ask for too much, come out side with me, hold my hand, come with us anywhere. Yet Lola gets 90% of his time with no issues. I just want to spend one day a week with you? She spends every waking moment with you.

He canceled date night, to be with Lola.

He canceled family time, to be with Lola.

It’s too hot for the zoo, I think I’ll just stay with Lola.

After my c section, I had to do everything alone, why? He was with Lola. 

The things I would do to Lola if I could. I have dreams of burning her. Nothing fills my heart with more joy than the thought of tying him down and forcing him to watch me dismantle her. 

I have never hated an object more in my life.
Lola is the destroyer of worlds.

So it’s been a crazy week

This last week, it was a lot.

I got my iud removed ! Yayyyyy!!! I feel 1000 times better. I have been haveing cramps and my arm is really sore but that’s okay I’m on my way. I have had some live soreness but I hope we get that taken care of soon.

Timeloard got her shots. She was not a happy camper. She literally freaked out. The only thing she seemed to enjoy was hugging the super cute nurse. It was hilarious she went straight for the arms … Much like mommy would have lol. 

I need a hug too Mr. Nurse, I need a hug. 

I dyed my hair blue. Now that I feel more like myself I want to look more like myself. I love it. I still need to treat it but i really like it.

Overall it was an okay week. 
Until I saw 3 white supremist get out their car and jump at black man and his wife in the grocery store parking lot. 

Yah that will fuck your week up.

There I was getting my stuff in the car, just as the couple was and this truck pulls behind them. I think they must have been yelling at them but I wasn’t paying attention, groceries stores  on a Sunday are crazy. I only noticed when I heard her screaming. Three cowards, three low life’s, jumping on a women while her husband tries to protect her in the parking lot. A few people came to her aid. I remember this Middle Eastern guy just came out of no where and was helping them as best he could. He was older. A white guy was the one who broke it up mostly.

They screamed Hitler slogans I only heard before in old documentaries on the History channel. They screamed for them to pull there paints up and not shop in their neighborhood. 

Some people helped, but what I remember most was how most just looked on and more than that; a few cheered. 

The wife just seemed shook up, the husband got beat down.

When it was over, the 3 men laughed and walked into the store. I don’t think cops were called. I was too scared in my car just trying to get out the parking lot. Literally shaking. How could this happen? How could this be okay ? How could people cheer?

I was directly across from them. Honestly I think the only reason it wasn’t me was because they just didn’t see me as they cruised threw the parking lot. I had my head in the car getting the baby in. They  just didn’t see the color of my skin. 

I’m always arguing with my friends that racism is vey few and far between. That we can’t just look at every white person with fear and distrust. That we have to end violence with love and understanding. 

Later that day, I purchased my first handgun. 
Xoxo

Lina Maureen

So it’s been a crazy week

This last week, it was a lot.

I got my iud removed ! Yayyyyy!!! I feel 1000 times better. I have been haveing cramps and my arm is really sore but that’s okay I’m on my way. I have had some live soreness but I hope we get that taken care of soon.

Timeloard got her shots. She was not a happy camper. She literally freaked out. The only thing she seemed to enjoy was hugging the super cute nurse. It was hilarious she went straight for the arms … Much like mommy would have lol. 

I need a hug too Mr. Nurse, I need a hug. 

I dyed my hair blue. Now that I feel more like myself I want to look more like myself. I love it. I still need to treat it but i really like it.

Overall it was an okay week. 
Until I saw 3 white supremist get out their car and jump at black man and his wife in the SAMs club parking lot. 

Yah that will fuck your week up.

There I was getting my stuff in the car, just as the couple was and this truck pulls behind them. I think they must have been yelling at them but I wasn’t paying attention, SAMs on a Sunday is crazy. I only noticed when I heard her screaming. Three cowards, three low life’s, jumping on a women while her husband tries to protect her in the parking lot. A few people came to her aid. I remember this Middle Eastern guy just came out of no where and was helping them as best he could. He was older. A white guy was the one who broke it up mostly.

They screamed Hitler slogans I only heard before in old documentaries on the History channel. They screamed for them to pull there paints up and not shop in their neighborhood. 

Some people helped, but what I remember most was how most just looked on and more than that; a few cheered. 

The wife just seemed shook up, the husband got beat down.

When it was over, the 3 men laughed and walked into SAMs. I don’t think cops were called. I was too scared in my car just trying to get out the parking lot. Literally shaking. How could this happen? How could this be okay ? How could people cheer?

I was directly across from them. Honestly I think the only reason it wasn’t me was because they just didn’t see me as they cruised threw the parking lot. I had my head in the car getting the baby in. They  just didn’t see the color of my skin. 

I’m always arguing with my friends that racism is vey few and far between. That we can’t just look at every white person with fear and distrust. That we have to end violence with love and understanding. 

Later that day, I purchased my first handgun. 
Xoxo

Lina Maureen

Saggy boobs

Today my husband let me know my boobs are saggy.

So fucking sweet right ? 

Idk why but it really pissed me off. Maybe because my hair is falling out and I’m fustrated over that. And now benign able to loose weight maybe that’s why I want to punch him in the fucking face.

Maybe I’m tired? I haven’t been sleeping well.

Maybe it’s the lack of coffee? I just broke my coffee pot and I’m staring out the window looking for the ups man like a junkie looking for a dealer.

Maybe it’s the stress of my liver ? I don’t know what’s wrong and it’s scarring me.

Maybe I need me time?

Or maybe that fuck face should keep his mother fuckig mouth shut. 
That’s probably it. 

I want to open an etsy shop

So I have been wanting to learn to sew and open an etsy shop for over a year. I just am scared to make an investment and know there’s probably going to be no return. Even more so what if people don’t like it? 

At the same time it may make me happy.
Idk guys it’s hard.

Sour Cream Enchiladas

So i was on the internet snooping and I saw some sour cream enchiladas. First on pintrest then on food network then pioneer women.

They would not go away. So I decided to make some

yum yum yum

Delicious chicken sour cream…salty and flavorful queso freso and Mexican Cheese for that color.

So these are my take on sour cream enchiladas.  ‘

So how do you do this?!

Ingredents:

For filling

• Chicken (i like to use breast and drumsticks because i think they make it taste more flavorful.) For my serving of 2 (two enchiladas each) I used one breast and one drumstick.
• One large lemon or 1/3 cup or lemon juice
• one half tablespoon cumin
• Salt to taste
• Garlic salt to taste
• One tablespoon butter
• One whole small onion
• One tablespoon garlic but you can use less as we all know I am obsessed with garlic… its a real problem.
• Green chilies I used two tablespoons but id say this is to taste

Directions

Filling

This could not be easier. Take your chicken, cumin, salt to taste, half your lemon and some garlic and dump it in a crock pot. If your crock pot is picky like mine and you need some liquid, I’d add stock or water. You can also put this in a pan and bake it but I just love me a crock pot. Cook until done which in my crock pot took about  2 hrs.  I did this step ahead and let it cool.

Once the meat is done shred it. Remove skin and bones and set them to the side you dont need all that. In a pan melt your butter and add in your onion. Let it cook down a bit until tender. Then  add in all your other ingredients. Since the chicken is cooked your really just making sure its well seasoned and is all mixed together well for when you add it in your enchiladas.

*VEGGIE LOVERS TIP TIP! To make this without meat, Id suggest following all the same steps but using white rice and black beans instead of chicken.

Sauce

Ingredents

• Two cups sour cream
• Mexican Carne Asada seasoning or Creole Seasoning will do just fine; one teaspoon
• If you like heat, jalapeno liquid from the jar to taste
• 1/3 cup queso fresco and 2 tablespoons to sprinkle on top
• 1 cup of Mexican cheese and about 4 table spoons to sprinkle on top 
• 1 tablespoons butter
• 1 tablespoon corn starch 
• One shot glass warm water 
• One table spoon garlic 
• Salt and pepper to taste 
• Two cups warm water or chick stock your choice 

Okay guys now for the good part. The sauce. Try not to eat it all out the pan. Will power guys. Will power.

In a pan  melt you butter and add your Finley chopped garlic. Mix corn starch and shot glass of warm water. Add to butter until it’s a paste.  Then add your warm water or stock and mix. Add sour cream then slowly add in your cheeses. Rember to crumble in your queso fresco it will help it melt. Add your seasoning and salt and pepper to taste. If you like heat add your jalapeño juice now. I love useing the juice because then noone sees the jalapeños and it’s like a sneak attack lol. Once it’s all melted and thick your ready to rock and roll.

Double check your seasoning; resist the urge to get some chips and go to town.

Assembly 

Grab some tortillas corn or small flour whatever you got on hand.  Warm them up in your microwave for a few seconds. Then grab your filling and fill just as you would a burrito. Go ahead and do it until all your filling is gone. Once done pour over all your delicious sauce. Then sprinkle your cheese. Yummmmm!

Put. Your. Fork. Down. Not yet kids not yet.

Once assembled, pop in the oven on 350 for 30 mins or pop on the broiler for a few mins just be sure to watch it or you’ll get some dark tortilla edges like I did lol.

Now, now you can dig in!
I paired this with some black beans ! Yum!!
I hope you enjoy ! 
 

 

 

The perfection that is the new X-Files

So I have always been obsseded with the X Files. Like obsessed.

When I was a kid, my mom would let me watch it. It was like our special thing. I wasn’t supposed to watch it because “it wasn’t for kids” but since I was “a big girl” I could watch it. So it was a pretty big deal.

When Fox announced its return I was too excited to share my geekiness with the Timeloard.

Wow guys. Just wow. 

I thought Chris Carter was going to ANSWER questions but now I just have so so so much more ! 

Where is William ?

WHERE IS SAMANTHA ?! 

why is that new agent so daym fine? 

WTF IS HAPPENING ON THAT BRIDGE ?! Are they going to die ?!???

The best part was watching it with Timeload. If I clapped she would clap. If I covered my mouth she do it too.  I know she has no ideal what is going on but it was nice to feel like someone else as as disturbed as I was lol.

I really hope they bring it back full time !!
Xoxo

Lina Maureen

Bbq Bowls

So a few night ago while sick …. I just did not want to cook. I tried to get the boss to order a pizza. 

He hates pizza 

No dice. 

Soooo I looked in my fridge and I created this 

Ladies and Gents I give you the bbq bowl. The easiest, yummiest dish ever.
  
Ingredients

  
Pasta of your choice (I like penne). I used 1/2 a box for 2 adults and my toddler who loved this.

1/2 package of link sausage (not sure if that is the correct name but it’s shown in the picture)

Bacon bits or bacon crumbled I used about 1 tablespoons (okay probably a lot more because … Bacon)

One half bottle of your favorite bbq sauce 

Cheese (optional)

Butter or Pam 
Directions 

*If you are using normals bacon cook it first 

1. Cook pasta as you normally would 

2. Cut your sausage in rounds. I liked mine pretty thick at about 1/4 of an inch or so. If this is for little people I’d cube it as well.

3.In frying pan melt butter or use Pam to and cook your sausage. 

4. Once pasta is cooked add it to your sausage 

5. Add 1/2 of the bbq sauce to your pasta and sausage. For me (I buy pretty large bottles) it was about 1 1/2 cups. It’s really up to you if you want to use more I made this again and my husband LOVED IT with more sauce. Stir until well mixed.

6. Now this can go two ways, I like to just put it in a bowl from here and top with cheese and bacon. However a few days ago I followed these steps and then topped with bacon and cheese and baked. Yum!

Either way this is going to rock your socks 
  
This meal is little people approved !
Hope this helps ! 

Xoxoxo

Lina 

So I had to take a break

So I have been Mia for a while because u guys I got sick…. Like cray cray sick. 
So I have an arm iud. I’ve had it for over a year. In the past year my body has totally not liked it. 

First issue was my boobs. They hurt so bad. I had huge lumps. I had clear discharge. My dr actually thought I may have cancer so we had a full check done. There was not cancer (thank God) but the pain stayed.

Then my hormones. They just were everywhere. I would just cry for no reason.

Then my hair. It falls out in clumps. I actually stopped dyeing my hair because I thought it would help (and that’s a big deal for me). Nope nothing. I’ve actually started wearing wigs because I lost so much hair. I have been treating it (I’ll do a blog about that) but guys it’s bad.

Oh and the stomach cramps. For about 2 months I get terrible cramps. Like I need to vomit and eat at the same time. Then I’ll break out in cold sweats.

I’ve been to the Drs more this past year than i have in my life. The Drs thought I was just makeing this all up or I had ppd. I thought this cannot get worse.

Then… It got worse and yes it can get worse.
FYI this is where the tmi is going to start:

Beware of the tmi 

Seriously if your squeamish stop. 

After writing my last blog I began getting really really bad cramps. I started getting like light discharge. Like pink lemon aid. I though “oh wow that’s my period that’s nothing.”

No gurl. No.

About 2 days later I woke up. I couldn’t breath. I couldn’t move. I thought.. Is this a painc arrack? What is this. Then I started with chest pains. Like it was tight. I had shortness of breath. I literally thought I was haveing a heart attack. I just got in the shower and tried to shake it off. It went away. I thought it was a painc attack. 

Then it happened again.

And again

And again.

Again.

I called the nurse. They said I didn’t need to come in I probably had heartburn.

Okay?

I went to sleep thinking they were correct when I wasn’t in pain I was ok. I do get nervous ? Has to be a panic attack.

I went to bed and that night I woke up in such pain I can’t explain it. Think late term labor. My legs were shaky I could hardly walk. I finally stood up and felt what I can only describe as a contraction. I immedetlly went to the rest room. When I got there i looked down and it was like Carrie. 

It wasn’t just blood. It was like jello. Like jello you chopped up and huge chunks of stuff. I honestly thought I was having a miscarriage. I freaked out. 

At this point I was going to the urgent care. I called the nurse and she said this is normal. THIS IS A NORMAL CYCLE ON NEXOPLAN.

What. The. Fuck.

Guys I have never seen blood  like that in my life. And I’ve had a beer bottle stuck in my leg. 

Just to put it in perspective, I went threw my entire extreme couponer stash of maxi pads. That’s about 200 pads. In a weekend. 

By the time I was driveing into the Drs I had blurry vision and I was lightheaded.

At this point I was cussing the urgent care out. They wouldn’t see me. As this is normal. They get these calls all the time. And they would not remove the iud.

On tues I demanded to see the dr and was thinking I had to get nasty about it but as soon as I said “I have the nexoplan” the nurse got me in on same day. 

My dr took it super serious. She said it is normal. She sees this about 8 times a day. That I am unforntully not alone. She totally understood. It was awesome. For the first time since getting this thing in my arm I felt herd.

She informed me that all my symptoms from the past year are side effects of my iud. Rare, but they are. Since I have always had bad hormones, this iud was probably not a good ideal for me. 

She soon put a referral for me to get this iud surgically removed which I am very excited for and I will update you guys.

In addition to this they found I have lost a lot of blood (no shit) and I have to take pills for that, chest pains and a pill to help me with pain. I feel better today but I am so excited to feel normal again soon.

She said because of my hormones I may have light to heavy bleeding daily for the next year. But my hormones and hair and weight and cheast pains, blurry vision should all stop quickly. That I’m happy about.
So that’s been my experience on nexoplan. Yes I’m sure haveing all these side effects is not normal but I just want to put out there my experience. 
Have you had issues like this?!
Xoxo

Lina 

30 day goals

I really want to improve on some things in my life. I just want to be better at them:
1. Dressing up: I do try and get ready everyday but it’s like not to the level I want. When I was single people said I looked like I was going clubbing everyday. That’s what I want to be back at. 
2. Planning out my outfits: I used to really think about and style my outfits. Lately I’ve gotten comfortable and it’s like I put on the first thing I see. I don’t like that. I really want to start planning and looking made up. Like ig ootd style lol maybe I could start doing weekly ones on here!
3. Blogging and really getting into YouTube: so I’ve wanted to do a YouTube channel for years but I’ve always been scared. I’m in this uncensored mommie group and I see how brutal moms can be and it scares me. But I’ve decided not to let it hold me back anymore. I’m buying a nice camera (finally) and I plan to get this going soon!
4. Think of better things to do with my daughter in the house: this is a hard one. When it’s just us I feel like I don’t do enough fun activities with her. We play in chalk and we play dolls but I see Pinterest n I’m like man I don’t do enough. I’d like to invite more kids over for play time with her and have things ready for her to do with me or alone here. Especially for rainy days !
5. Do more things for my husband: I want to really step it up. Don’t get me wrong I do a lot but I’d like to do more. I have a good husband he deserves it. So not sure what else I can do but I’m sure good ol l Google will help lol
Do you have goals ? I’m thinking to make these mine for 30 days each. What are your goals ?
Xoxoxo
Lina Maureen